@Phoebe That's so negligent and deadly, the way this "shepherd" dismissed you when you were checking out of this universe for good... He obviously paid attention in that atrocious elders' training video where the elder caring for a suicidal sister instructs her to chant "I am an integrity keeper" as a fix all for her inescapable suffering.
Just like cyber bullies have to answer to the law when a teen suicides as a result of the merciless taunting online, so should these elders for every congregational member who didn't pull through the way you did. I wonder how many poor souls weren't as strong as you, Pheebs. We're just so lucky to have you here today supporting us on this forum. I can't imagine how much more fortunate your children are to have a mother as lucid and resolved as you are today